Journal Entry #80
I am so nervous, I haven’t slept in days, I have already had to start taking “Imodium” and we haven’t even left yet!
Is it too soon to travel? Am I really ready?
I finally looked at a map, made arrangements for the kids, the cat, packed all my physical stuff, purchased four bottles of 30% Deet bug spray, and prepared my first aid and medical kit – all since my last session with Terry Green. I also made an appointment to see Doug at Pharmacy Associates of Port Perry – our local travel clinic to prepare. Fortunately, I won’t have to do any particular inoculations to go to Bequia, as I was well prepared from Guatemala from last year. I am glad of this as with a compromised immune system, I would have had difficult decisions to make. Typhoid Fever is a 3-5 year vaccination, all good there. Hep A &B – still covered. Tetanus, up to date. A booster of Dukerol, which really only gives about 25% coverage, but that is better than nothing. So I drank the disgusting stuff anyway. He sent me with Cipro just in case I get travellers diarrhea. There is a risk of Dengue Fever and Zika where we are headed, so the Deet was encouraged.
As if I hadn’t thought of that already?!
Dr. Katrina has also helped me build a protocol for going away. Some of the remedies I have already started to take in advance of leaving, some I will start in the morning when we travel. The last two IV Bags were full of energy boosting and immune boosting nutrients so that my system is strong going through the airport and recycled air on the plane. I am trying not to think about the Coronavirus, or all the other Flus going around – I have a masks packed just in case I am stuck sitting next to a “sickie” on the plane. And anti-bacterial wipes packed to wipe down my seat, tray and anything else I may have to touch on the plane. My current regime of supplements, medications and plant medicines looks like this:
- Molybdenum – to help with brain function and energy
- Active B1 – to help with brain function and energy
- PhosCholine – to cross the blood/brain barrier to improve memory and brain function
- MitoSap – to cross the blood brain barrier to help with brain function and memory Probiotic Supreme – to improve immune function and immune support
- Vitamin E – for skin cell regeneration
- Vitamin D – 8000IU per day to help with immune support and a host of other things
- Omega 3 – for brain, skin cell regeneration, strength and energy
- Collagen Dermal – mixed into a drink for skin/muscle cell regeneration.
- Custom tincture (Lemon Balm, Withania, Motherwort) for anxiety and nerves
- Custom tincture (cleavers, astragulus, reishi, eleuthero) to support the nervous system, immune system and adapt to energy changes.
- Comforcleanse – for digestion and bowel regularity
- Amitryptaline – for depression and sleep
- Visanne – for hormone regulation (further investigation will happen when I get back)
In addition to this regime, I am adding in a travel protocol as well, and it looks like this:
- XOS – for bowel/stomach regularity, daily as needed
- Travel probiotic – for stomach protection and digestion, daily
- Apis – to prevent ill effects of bug bites
- Ledum – to prevent ill effects of bug bites
- Ener-C – to prevent dehydration, to keep electrolytes up, and increase Vitamin C in the body
Everything I am taking is taken in a directed and methodical way, at certain times of the day, with particular combinations of the others, all muscled tested to be most effective for my body. A downside of travel right now is not having access to the CBD Cannabis that I use for pain, sleep and anxiety.
With the amount of medications and preventative measures I am taking, I feel really, really old.
I have never prepared to go on a trip like this before. Typically, I would be worried about having the perfect manicure and pedicure, getting in a few tans to have a base, shopping to have a new outfit and/or bathing suits and getting my hair done.
But not this time.
I have spent more time with doctors, naturopaths, and therapists preparing for this just to be physically, mentally and emotionally ready. But I still can’t help but wonder if it is too soon?
Dr. Katrina is so realistic. She has been preparing me for WHEN I get bit by a bug on vacation. Not IF, but WHEN. In all my years of travel, I always get bitten by something – probably like the rest of the population. Bed Bugs in Guatemala, Mosquitos in Costa Rica and Mexico, Sand fleas in Belize, Spiders in Italy…she is right…I am bound to be bit by something at some time, so I best prepare myself mentally for when that will happen.
One of my loving clients gave me a gift certificate for a mani/pedi for Christmas and I was happy to sneak it into my day yesterday. We had a language barrier, so even though my feet feel amazing and look pretty, my hands are wild and don’t look anything like my naturally understated comfort zone. And as I write this, I can’t help but laugh because as I shake with stress, my hands are an obvious give away of just how nervous I really am.
My clients today were asking if I was feeling ready to go? I intentionally over booked my day today so that I wouldn’t have to think about it. I saw 8 clients and hosted Courage Circle Meditation – I haven’t had a work day this big in about a year. I know it was a distraction, but I really didn’t want to keep focusing on the stress, anxiety and worry. I just have to cope until I can get there.
We are leaving at 6am for the airport. It is midnight now, snow is falling and the bags are packed and waiting at the door.
I can’t believe I am doing this.